It occurs to me that I have been a very bad blogger and need a firm slap on the wrist. However, watching Julie and Julia today with my sister, made me realize I must change my ways and get back to something that makes me happy...writing.
Speaking of change, it seems to be in the air these days. I was reflecting on my life and friendships and realized just how much has changed in the past few months. My sister and I have both been out of work for nearly two months. Good riddance but a serious financial hardship none-the-less. We have both had interview upon interview and as I write this, I am waiting to hear about a seasonal job with Nordstroms. Whether I get the job or not, it means I will no longer be working with my sister, something I'd been doing part-time since 2002 and full-time since 2007. It wasn't my intention when I moved here to work with her; after-all, we have very different temperaments, talents, and goals. But, there's been an invaluable sense of safety and support. Now, its back out into the working world on my own. Time to put on the big-girl panties and deal with life straight on. (Side-note: As I'm writing this, I've gotten notice that I've been hired as a blogger for the local theater scene. It's not a job I can live on, but I'll be paid to write. CHANGES!)
Babies, babies everywhere and not a diaper to change. As I was pondering the massive change in my surroundings, I realized how many friends have little ones either recently born or expected. If my calculations are correct, there are three new lives within the last three months, and four on the way. Astounding! My congrats to all and WELCOME to the beautiful little wonders. It puts all sorts of focus on my ticking clock, however, and encourages continual self-examination. How many more years do you have, Rachel, to safely have a baby? Do you want to be a mother? Do you want this man to be the father of said hypothetical baby? Look at your finances! Do you think you could afford to have a child now, even if you wanted one?!? That line of thought usually leads into...Where is your life going? Are you where you want to be? Are you where you're supposed to be? What do you want?!? All good questions, but sometimes more than I can handle. I think Dan is a saint for putting up with my over-active mind.
I tend to believe in the super-natural. This created one of the loveliest connections between a former co-worker and myself. She was the office guru when it came to astrology. Before my tenure at Commencement Health Care ended, we were discussing what was going on out in the universe. She said there was some kind of huge return -- Saturn perhaps -- that was shaking everything up and leaving chaos in its wake, but it would be an opportunity to create the life that you wanted if you used it that way. That's how I'm going to use all this change. Keep what works and replace what doesn't. Embrace it...as scary as it can be.
What changes have happened in your life recently?
1 comment:
Nicely written post. Good luck with the ongoing job search and congratulations on being selected for the writing assignment. I hope it leads to something bigger.
As for the changes I've made in my life, here is what I have to report: I reincorporated fish and dairy products into my diet after going raw vegan for the better part of six years. (If it's good enough for Jack LaLanne, it's good enough for me.) Also, I started playing video games again. (nothing like the old Nintendo console to provide a quick throwback to my grade school days) Finally, I went on my first audition in over years this week. There's no way in hell I'll make it to callbacks (much less get cast), but it was good to make a brief return to the stage.
Thank you for posting.
-JG
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